- It’s easy to get caught up in the moment.
- It’s easy to look back & wish that time could reverse so that you could fix things.
- It’s easy to get irritated with your past.
- It’s easy to blame others for your misgivings.
What isn’t easy, is moving on.
I promised myself in my last post that I wouldn’t dwell on the past & berate myself for not being where I wanted to be. Yeaaaaaaaaaaah, that lasted a whole of 5 minutes. I could point fingers & pass the buck, stating that x person could’ve helped but didn’t, people who I thought were my friends are gone by the wayside, that there was too much going on, too many things to try & do, not enough time to do it all. Is it true? Yes & no. With everything there is always an element of perception – how you view something isn’t necessarily the way another will view it. What one believes is a helpful suggestion, another will believe it to be a hindrance.
I think it’s part of human nature to wish you could change things, it’s also a lot easier to say things after the fact, that it wasn’t entirely your fault.
This morning I was angry. Angry at many things, at what is not relevant; what is relevant is that being angry at something that has already happened is NOT going to change it. What will change though, is how I deal with interactions with fitness professionals from now on. I’ve learned to not take any one person at face value. I’ve learned that in order to succeed & progress, you NEED to do your own research – even if it counters what you thought you already knew; knowledge is power folks. Never forget that.
I really do wish I knew then, what I know now – maybe then I wouldn’t feel like I had such a huge mountain to climb, maybe I wouldn’t need to be going back to physiotherapy & maybe I would’ve been closer to some of my goals than I currently am.
That being said, blogging isn’t going to get me any closer either. So I bid you adieu as today is LEG DAY!