2 months since I last blogged. 2 months worth of programmes have hit my email inbox & they’re still sat….waiting…..if email could have dust, they’d probably be covered in a thick, almost lint-like fuzz.
I feel apathetic about it though. I still cycle. A lot. However, I can count on one hand how many times I’ve been to the gym since my depression diagnosis. I.Still. Cannot. Gym.
It’s not for a lack of trying. I think. I’ve been to yoga quite frequently & have new physio things to do – which I’ve kept up with.
I set my alarm to get up to go to the gym before work (which I used to do & I’d cycle 6 miles just to GET to the gym) but I turn it off & sleep for another hour, meaning when I get up I have to bike to work, no gym time and I HATE gymming on an evening. My gym is small & bench/weight hoggers are in on an evening, so no thank you.
I feel like I’m making excuses but no matter what time I go to bed, I still can’t bring myself to get up.
It feels like a rut, stuck in a hole with no way out….
I have no idea if the meds I’m on are the reason I can no longer get up unless I REALLY have to. I should look into it.
I was gonna add more, but that’s it for now.