Remember the slump I had? The confidence knock & wondering whether training was worth it in case I hurt myself? Yeaaaaah. That’s gone.
I’m currently sprawled on the sofa, wearing a dressing gown & supping from a giant cup of coffee – HOWEVER don’t let my image of listlessness be disheartening to you – it’s late & I’ve been at work all day.
On the way home the other night I had an overwhelming sense of calm, contentedness & a feeling that I’ve never been able to convey in words – er, euphoria might be close. It’s been a while since I felt like that regarding training. I don’t know if it has something to do with the fact my training has ramped up or whether I’m just generally more happy. A lot of credit has to be given to endorphins; my PT can vouch for that – when I first met him I was pretty angry & got wound up relatively easily. Happy hormones are incredible!!!
I’m back on Fitocracy & adding my workouts to it a lot more regularly than I had in the past. The weather is beginning to improve & the light of day is staying for longer which makes for a nicer cycle to & from work and the gym.
I was asked a few questions today from a friend who hasn’t seen me since before I started training; she commented on my weight loss and said I’d inspired her to go to the gym more often.
Do you get cravings for food that is unhealthy?
Not really, no. In the beginning satiating my want for certain foods was hard but not any more.
Do you not just fancy a Big Mac some days?
No. I never really ate fast food before I started training so being without really doesn’t bother me.
What about giving in to a craving? Have you do that?
Yes, absolutely. I won’t lie about eating – sure I’ve had cake, ice cream, dirty carbs and sweets in the past 6 months. I don’t feel bad about it. The odd treat isn’t going to reverse all I’ve achieved, so there is no guilt.
Is the cake I’ve seen you make really taste as good as normal cake?
Yes & no. Some that I have made that taste incredible but there have been some that have been thrown away after the first taste. It’s all about experimenting to see what works well.
Er, so yeah. the past week or so has had me remember the reason I started training & holding on to the goal I had in the first place. I’ve had a lot of time off this year due to injury and I’m determined to not do it again….I know I shouldn’t think about where I could be had I not being in two accidents in such a short space of time, but I have. It got to me, it started to gnaw away at me, and could have put an end to my training if I’d have let it. I’ve never said I was a competitive person, I’m not. I’m stubborn, I HATE things defeating me, I hate being beaten by something & will fight tooth & nail to overcome the hurdle. I’m not beaten, not by a long shot.
The year is still young & I still have a lot to prove!