So we can learn how to get back up……..
Well, 2015 has been a bumpy ride for me & it’s only February! January saw me break my nose then about 2 weeks ago I came off my bike again & split my eyebrow & got a pretty nasty looking gash on my cheek, along with a bruise on my hip that has still to heal. The second knock, although not as damaging to my face, I did some pretty serious damage to my bike & it was out of action until this week when I finally got time to fix it & calibrate the breaks and gears.
I felt sorry for myself. I wondered the point of the gym or trying to become fitter as I seem to hit obstacles that prevent me from progressing in a manner I feel is good progress. I questioned if it was worth it or not. Getting a lift to work meant I didn’t have to take a change of clothes with me, and I could stay in bed for another hour…..who doesn’t want that?!
The reason my sub title on here is “Overcoming mental barriers, one lift at a time” is because I know my mind is my distractor. (I know that’s not a real word) My PT know how much I procrastinate; I’ve lost count how many times he’s asked me recently if I’ve been to the gym without him, the answer is I haven’t. I haven’t wanted to go. I haven’t wanted to get up while it’s still dark & train for an hour before work. I’ve stopped feeling bad for not going too, however. My wheels are fixed, I’ve been out on the bike & feel a lot better for it. I’m not giving up, I’m not giving in. Two knocks in as many months have caused a crisis in confidence – I’ve identified it & know I’ll get over it. It’s taken a few weeks but tomorrow is the start of a new week. I’m rested, I feel the need to get back to gym now. I’m not willing to lose my progress, I know where I want to be by the end of the year & taking time off away from the gym isn’t going to help me get to where I want to be.
I’ve promised those who care about me that I won’t fall again, in all honesty I can’t fall again, I don’t know how I’d cope with that mentally.